Damn, I have no reason for sadness at this moment in time. Things are really unfolding for me, my license will be back so soon and I’ll be driving again before I know it. I’m happy, unconditionally in love, and healthy for the most part. I can’t slip up and fall into some pit of sadness brought on ultimately by an original insecurity. That would not be fair to do to myself. I do not deserve to give myself shit for my unavoidable feelings. I also do not deserve to be made to feel bad for how I react naturally. What really needs to be done here is moving forward. Because above all, I have love for you above anything else. But damn do I hate feeling pushed away, distant, and alone. I just consistently give my true feelings and reminders of them. Reassurance is gold sometimes. Especially when two people are so emotionally on the same plane with their love. It’s hard to not hurt when someone you love with every single bit of your being is hurt. It’s hard to not smile when the person you want to share everything with is. :)
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails…"
The Jimi Hendrix Experience — Castles Made of Sand - 1967